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(Kiss Michelle!!)

Good bye! [19 Oct 2004|11:42pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Hey every one. I am leaving LiveJournal. Sad, sad I know. But I have taken residence at another on line journal web site. This is becoming too much of a stress for me. Fights shouldn't be taken out on line. It's rediculous and I refuse to condone it. So this is my last entery. I am not going to disclose the web site that I am relocating to or my screen name. No reason. I just don't want to. Anyway, all of you who were known as "my LJ friends" I love you all muchly. If you'd like, my email is trainwreck_noir@yahoo.com . It would be cool if you could keep in touch!

Much love to the pretties, for the last time.

-- Adaam

(11 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

No. Not this time. [17 Oct 2004|08:34pm]
[ mood | adamant ]


I absolutely refuse to fall into your little manipilation death trap. I won't side with you and agree that "we don't matter to Beth anymore". That just goes to show how well you DON'T know her, and how much you cared to get to know her. You have done this to me once. You won't do it again. And I haven't given up. So don't try to recruit me. It won't work...

(Kiss Michelle!!)

Oh, 'nother song. [16 Oct 2004|12:37pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I wrote another song. I wrote it in english as an assignment. (100 words a day)
It's called "Untiteled for Lack of Direction". Hope you all like!!

-Untitled for Lack of Direction

By: Adaam King

I’ve no direction but there.
But my mind is stuck right here.
I want to move on with you,
And this confusion sees me through...the day

Washed out over the shore of your mind
Nothing there but thoughts of dreams of everything
Tripping over the body inside
Calling for my love to sing...true.

I bury my face in your chest to hear you breathe.
From this window I hear you receive-
Your precious beats from your precious heart,
That sound tells me where to start.


There's nowhere I’d rather be
Than here, right now with you.
I am not afraid...to lose you
Because you were made for me.

*Chorus x2*

Point me in your direction
Because I’ll find you anyway...

- A. King

-- Adaam

(2 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Theres no blame for how our love did slowly fade... *Death Cab for Cutie* [16 Oct 2004|12:17pm]
[ mood | sad/pissed off ]

I feel so complainie lately. Like about my car and about school. Betty has been acting sick lately. Like she's about to break down at any moment. Squeeking, coughing, ratteling, shaking, popping...you name it. But at least I have a car. I should be thankful, even if she is a little sick. But it should be better soon. We are taking her to see auto mechanic on Monday.
And school is hard. Of coarse it is! That's high school. I wasn't expecting any different. But at least I am privaleged anough to get an education. And lastly my job. I HATE it. But at least I have one. I could be without job, car and education. How would I feel then? Well. I suppose I sould think of all of that more often, when I am being agravated at it.

I don't think Beth likes me any more. I went over to her hous on a random whim the other night and we had a small, yet fulfilling convorsation. And then I saw her last night with Ris-ris and Sarah, and she acted as if she didn't want to speak to me. I even invited her to my Eagle Scout cerimony (which I just finished, about and hour ago) and she just blew it off. As if it was unimportant. I have been inviting her to all of my major cerimonies and even concerts since we were in the 9th grade. And all of the sudden, when the most important thing, something that will only ever happen once in my life, something I have been wroking so hard for, for 5 years, it becomes a surprise that I am inviting her. She acted like she had better things to do. It really hurt my feelings. Alot. She is the very last person I would expect this from. It's hard for me to deal with, but I think we are drifting apart. We are not BethAdaam any more. I don't know how to deal with this. I don't know what to think. We have been through so much. We have agreed on most of everything for...ever. Just one day, we both just decided to start on our seperate paths. I wish I wasn't losing her like this. I need her. She was such a big part of me. I mean, people, like our friends, would ask me if Beth wasn't with me, "Oh hey, where's Beth?" of "How is Beth? Why isn't she here with you?" Who knows. Maybe I'm over reacting. Maybe this is just a phase. Maybe we will end up together forever, as everyone suspects we will. It's just not fair that we have to do this. I know very well that it's not her fault. It's not even mine. There's nothing that could have been done. And if there was, I wish I had known about it.
I guess I should take some of my own advice; the basis of a healthy relationship is communication. I'll just have to dig deeper into this issue. I can't lose her. She means too much to me. She's my sister. My best friend. She is...part of me.
I don't know. We'll see what happens. I need a cigarette...damnit.

-- Adaam


(6 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Letter to the opposing team [14 Oct 2004|01:19am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

So I got this pamphlet in the mail today that was pushing for the ban on gay marrige. I was absolutely peeved by this. I couldn't even see straight! (Not that I can right now, lol!) So I did my homework at 11:00 this evening and when I was finished, I wrote them a letter. Very oppinionated but I conveyed my point. I thought I'd share it with you all. Read and feel my wrath.

"I am a 17 year old gay male who is a student at Churchill High School in Eugene, Oregon. I arrived home today and to my dismay, I found one of your pamphlets, that is supporiting discrimination, in my mail box. I opened it up to read it, only to find that I was correct.

I read all 7 of your platforms that you have supplied to support your reasoning of starting this Coalition. I do not agree with any of them. Although I am only 17 and not as informed I might be if I were old enough to vote, I noted that you had said "Seven 'Facts' You Must Know". At least 2 of the arguments in this pamphlet are purely subjective. A child may be raised "in a healthy, socially accptable manner", more or less in a hetersexual household and family setting. But Consider this; a homosexual couple has the capibility of providing the same amenities of nurturing and love that a hetersexual couple does. So, basicaly, your pamphlet is implying that a homosexual couple lacks these capibilities completely. That is to say that a homosexual couple with a child is irresponcible and incapable of raising a well rounded individual, able to function in todays modern society. If this is not what you wanted to convey, then I suggest that you make the needed changes. (Also, think of the thousands uppon thousands of childeren who live in abusive households today...)

Which brings me to my next conflict. Everything that you are supporting leads right back to discrimination. You are saying, purely because I love a man and wish to marry him, I should not be allowed to. That concept is highly contradictory. To say that because I am different, I should not be given the right to marry who I love. There is no more 'sanctity' to protect anymore in this day and age with marrige. The divorce rate in the United States is up to 1 in every 2 couples end up in a divorce. Think of how much impact Oregon will have on this. One state out of 50 is not much to ride on. So from a different perspective, there is no holiness to marrige if it can be broken that easily. And it is proven, that most of the gay couples that have been together for 20 years or more and are waiting to take advantage of this, or at least to revive hope for, are more likely to STAY committed. Because after civil union is recognised, it would be as an average relationship would be, except with benifits and commodities given to an average American couple.

Another thing you are over looking is the benifits you are depleating these loving U.S. citizens of by supporting this. If this Measure is passed, thousands of gay couples will be denyed the simplistic benifits of marrige that you take advantage of. Like the medical rights, to see a loved one who has been badly hurt and has been admitted to a hospital. How would you feel if you were denyed the ability to visit your husband or wife, who happened to be in a coma behind those hospital doors? You would feel out of control. Losing tough with him/her. What if he/she died and you never got to say good bye, or tell them how much you loved them? Think of this, and think of what you are trying to deny these people.

I am not asking you to step down. I respect that you people have beliefs and this is to be expected with anything in life. An oppinion. Everyone has one, and I thought I'd share mine with you.

Thank you for listening.

-- Adaam King
17 Eugene, Oregon"

(12 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

It certenly has been a while. [12 Oct 2004|11:37pm]
[ mood | weird ]

Well. Here I am again. I am sure you are wondering where has Adaam gotten to? Or maybe is he dead or something!? But no, I am here. Just VERY busy lately. Boyfriend. School. Work. School. School. I should burn my books and say I can't do any school anymore because my house burned down. That would be fun! And quite therepudic, I must say!
But besides that not much else.
Matty came down to visit the weekend before last. And then the next weekend I went up to Belllingham for his birthday. He was supposed to come back this weekend for my Eagle cerimony, but can't make it due to financial stresses and school stress. I could understand. Poor kid!
But I am here for him though. I always will be.

SO that's about it.
Talked to Beth today. First time in a long time. Made me happy.
I must go now. Im in a weird mood and my back hurts. TA PRETTIES!!

-- Adaam

(15 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

FINALLY!!! [27 Sep 2004|08:24pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

YAAAYYY!!! I finally got my freeking car! I am now the proud owner of a little silver 2001 Toyota Corolla, whom I have affectionately named "Betty"! She has a little rainbow sticker above her stop alert light in the back and above that a sticker that is supportive of Inclusive Scouting. (The concept that gays should be allowed in scouting.) And then theres my 2 Michelle Branch stickers between the Toyota dnt the Corolla symbols and on the bumper, along with a Hellogoodbye sticker on the far left of my back bumper and a Steel Train sticker on the other side from that. It's so much fun to drive! I love her to pieces.
But that's enough of me bragging about my adorable car, I need to go do math!


-- Adaam

(4 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

With the wax and the buffing and the paint and the comming off...GAHHHHHH!!!! [25 Sep 2004|07:55pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Okay, so heres the poo:

My car was taken straight from the dealer to the detailing specialist, where they were to clean my car inside and out with meticulous precision. Buffed, dusted, vacuumed, scrubbed, waxed...the works. It will look like new when they are done.
I was supposed to get it today. When my mom called the place to ask if it was done earlier today. their responce was that the suspicious paint job on the front of my car was coming off as they were buffing it. SO they now have to re do the entire front of my car so it doesn't look like crap. So now, not only do I have a car with a shit paint job, I am not getting it until MONDAY. I was supposed to get it Thursday. But my parents decided that we had other stuff to do and to do it later. And th other crap part is that I have only ever seen this car once. I did get to drive it fortunately, but I have only heard stories about it since.
I really hate how life is not fair. And I also hate how I can be a whiney prick about not getting my way...it makes not getting my way that much less fun. GRR.

-- Adaam

(Kiss Michelle!!)

Britney Spears? [23 Sep 2004|12:47pm]
[ mood | blank ]

I know it's Britney and I HATE her...but this song makes me wanna cry...so I'm gonna post it quick-like, because the bell just rang and I have to go to 6th!


Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry


At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

(10 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Whoo-HAAA!!! [22 Sep 2004|10:40pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Mmmmmkay...random subject line! Lovely!
Anyway, I have come to terms with my lovers drinking issues I have had. He just sent me a text message, telling me he was drinking with friends, and I just...didn't care. I was prepairing myself for the usual feeling of displeasure in knowing this. But for some reason I just...didn't. I still worry for his health, but I was not compelled to ask how much he was drinking or how drunk he was, as I usually am. I just didn't care. And I also think I have come to terms with the reasons I was having the feelings I was having. I was jealous. I was jealous that he got to drink, (i.e. him having access to alcohol and I do not) and I, obviousally don't. I am still jealous but I can deal with it. It's great to know whats going on inside of my head! As long as he doesn't ditch me to go drink, I'll be fine! Cos I do plan to be invited to parties this year and I DO plan to get drunken! And if I don't then I shall arrange it! HELLA!
So aside from that, school is going alright. I am not liking my math class too much, but that is to be expected. I have never liked math and I'm not about to start now...journalism is really fun. I love it. It's the feeling of being part of a big team and it's then that I feel important and depended uppon. And I like that feeling. I am actually looking forward to doing my job during production weeks. My job being production manager. I get to pick up slack if someone isn't doing their job fully. Like, if someone isn't taking their pictures or editing them, I get to. But I'm not alone, my friend Holly and I do the job together. I'm looking forward to it!! WHEE!!!
In fact, I have already written an article that was, or will be posted on the Churchill website! And you can be sure that I will post a link to that when it is posted! (i.e. when Patrick finishes editing it!!)
I want to write more, but I'm not sure about what...OH!!
I know!! Tomorrow my dad is dirving all the way out of town, about 1/2 an hour, to be appriximate, to retrieve the car that I hope to get, and take it all the way back into town to have it looked at by an auto mechanic. If it passes this test, I will own a 2001 silver Corolla CE. It is so cute and such a 'me' car! I am in love with it! Although it has automatic NOTHING, except the shift is automatic, I still REALLY want it. It has manual locks, windows, seats and just a radio and a clock! But fortunately it does have air conditioning and heating! It's all very basic, but I want it so bad!!
So hopefuly thast will happen REALLY soon! Because sister needs a car...
Oh, and if that wasn't enough, a 2001 Corolla CE was one of Matty's first cars! Cute! I MUST HAVE IT!!
So I am off to bed, because sister is bushed! I need my rest...

Later days pretties!!

-- Adaam

(9 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Cos I miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away...*Daniel Beddingfield* [21 Sep 2004|11:03pm]
[ mood | determined ]

I am sad. I am very sad. I feel like I want to cry, really. I don't feel like this often. This isn't something I wrestle with on a regular basis.
I don't even know what it is. Well actully. That would be a bold faced lie. I know what it is. But I don't want it to be what it is. I miss him. I love him so much and I cant show him. And that hurts me so badly. This will be hard to do. This whole long distance thing. But it will happen. If for no other reason, I will make it happen. This is too beautiful to throw away.

-- Adaam

(8 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

1:31 am [20 Sep 2004|08:13pm]
[ mood | loved ]

A text message convorsation that took place at 1:31 this morning.

1:31 am:

Matt: I know you're sleeping, but I just had the scariest dream that you died in a car crash.

Me: Oh no! It's okay babe! I'm alright!

Matt: Thank you. I hope I never lose you. I love you and sorry that I woke you. Go back to sleep my beautiful prince.

Me: I was already awake. But I'll try. You won't have to worry about losing me. I'd be careful for you. I love you too. So very much.

How sad! I hate to think of him losing sleep over something like that. I understand too. I have had several dreams where he has either died, left me or just didn't care about me. It's hard to deal with. But I know both of us have nothing to worry about. Unless one of us did die, we aren't going anywhere away from eachother any time soon. It's a beautiful thought. I can't wait for forever to come, so I can spend it with him.

-- Adaam

P.s. He called me 'beautiful prince'. I think I am going to cry...

(2 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

If I call your name out, would you carry me on inside?... *Someone from the Shreck 2 Soundtrack* [19 Sep 2004|02:21pm]
[ mood | calm ]

That song is so good. I was listening to it in my car yesterday, as loud as I possibly could without making my ears bleed, thinking about Matt.
I am so happy I finally achieved licence yesterday! Yet another milestone. Another chapter in the best seller known, as my life. And the 2nd one in a week! Oh, I also got my Eagle Scout rank on Thursday...thats the other milestone. But my licence is more important!
I must have blown 3/4 of a tank of my mothers gas yesterday! It was fabulous, but today, I am going car shopping, so I won't have to blow her gas for much longer.
Now I have to go do research on Washington and it's economic status. You know, it's numbers concerning it's political parties, poverty rates, voters, population, things of general interest, and other things an economics class would require from an informational paper as such. I also have to do that for Iowa. I'm pondering calling Matty for help on Washington. It would be easier than doing 24 hours of research on line for it. And about 1,000 times more fun and fulfilling. Plus, he's like a genious about econ.

So I shall adjourn for now. My appendages are cold and I have to vacuum.

And in reply to one special someone, I am glad I could fill your glass. You give me something to fill it with.

Much love to pretties.

-- Adaam

(10 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

[ mood | EXTATIC!!! ]

I GOT MY MOTHER FUCKING LICENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(2 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Thank you [18 Sep 2004|03:45pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Hey guys. Thanks so much for all of your support. I am so thankful I have friends like you. And I hate sounding all cry-baby-like, like that. I was just having those dumb anxieties. I'm doing well though. Just, thanks so much.

-- Adaam

(9 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Not good enough? [16 Sep 2004|09:25am]
[ mood | pensive ]

I am not one for a journal entery riddled with self pitty, but today, I am feeling particulerly ridden with doubt. I don't know why. I don't do this. It's just not me. I think it's the stagnant concept in my head that I don't deserve the good things that come into my life.
I just feel like I'm not good enough for him. It's nothing that he has said, done or even implyed. It's just my own personal demons, manifesting themselves as low self esteem.
It's as if I don't feel like I'm smart enough, or attractive enough.
I know I'm smart and attractive. But when coupeled with a relationship and where those aspects of myself come into play, it just seems that they are overshadowed by everyone else in the world who is better than me. He could have any guy he wanted. I'm more than positive that there are several guys who would jump at the chance to date him or even have him acnowledge their sexual existance. But he chose me. Why? What do I have that he could not find in anyone else?
I am so thankful that he did choose me though. I couldn't have asked for more. And I couldn't have fallen in love with a more perfect guy.
But I can't seem to get rid of this nagging parasite in the back of my mind that is tearing at me. Telling me I'm not good enough, smart enough, attractive enough, funny enough, I don't love him enough...
I just wish I didn't have to question. I just wish I could fucking accept this amazing gift that has been handed to me and cherish it without overanalizing.
But I suppose that will all desolve with time. One can hope, anyway.
So for now, I should just try to cover it all up in my head, by thinking about all the good things I have going for myself. Because it is when one dwells uppon ones flaws and failures that one begins to fail further. But it is when one realises this, and remembers ones strong points, and assets that one can acheive anything.

Peace to the pretties.

(6 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Oh my goodness! I wrote another one! [14 Sep 2004|08:40pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Yes, I know this is the second entery in like...an hour or something, but I just wrote a song! And I wanted to share it with my peeps!! It's called "Feel (Your Soul Fly Away)"

Feel (Your Soul Fly Away)
A song written for: Matthew Bebbington
By: Adaam King

I see you there with your smiling face
Deep inside drowning in your space
Take a stroll to a far off place
Where you feel my love, warm on your face

And I want to save you,
Keep you warm
Save you from the world
And where your from
Look at and me tell me what you see
Feel your soul fly away...free

I can feel you from across the sky
Lovely heart broken, lost in a sigh
Silky tears left over from lies
Kissing softly as fears fly by


Fell my hand inside of yours
Tell me now, what you’ve come for
I’ll give you anything, I’m an open door
Kiss me now, with my soul on the floor


Fly by
Blue Sky
I can take you away
Hello, goodbye
I’ll be waiting for you...yeah


-- Adaam

(25 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

How the fuck do they find out about EVERYTHING?!?!?!? [14 Sep 2004|05:47pm]
[ mood | devious ]

Parents are disgusting to me...somehow they ALWAYS figure you out. There is not a thing in the enitre world you can keep from them. Especially, ESPECIALLY mothers. I think they were born with three 6's on their scalp...They just...KNOW. And that creeps me out alot.

So I have my drivers test scheduled for 8 am on Saturday morning! I am {}<--This close to getting my licence!!! I can taste it! And then a car..and then the gas, maintenance, keeping it clean, remembering to lock it, paying for everything, finding all of these "new friends" you never knew you had...the list goes on. But it will be worth it. TOTALLY. May parents have already tryed to scare me out of it. But I won't move from my platform. I am TOO excited!

What else? School. It has been alot to keep up with so far. I already have homework...*duh*. And journalism will be hectic! Ah!

OH YEAH...my job. So aparantly there was a huge all staff meeting at my work today. I knew about this about 4 days in advance. Oh and this is good; I had to get out of school early for it. The meeting started about 2:30, by the way. So I call my mom today and aske her where and when she is meeting me. She tells me it isn't until tomorrow. Cool. I didn't want to go today anyway. So then about 2:20, I get a call from Heather asking where I am. Aparantly the meeting was TODAY. And this was vital...I guess. So afterwords I get a call from her saying I am SOOO fired. I don't know if I believe that. I will when I see it.
So ANYWAY. If they do fire me, I don't really care. I'll just find another job. Whatever. But what pissed me off was that they expected ME to miss school for a gathering where the manager was to chew everyones ass out. What a fucking waste of my time. I could care less about how the floors are kept or when the food is served and how. I have better thingsa to do. And the best part, is that it is ILLEGAL to pull me out of school for stupid shit like that. So I'd like to try to see them fire me for that. I doubt anyone will say anything about it to me. Ah well. As I said, I don't give a shit! It's funner that way!

Oh and Matty, if you read this;
Ec-o-nom-i-cal: 1. Not wasteful in managing funds or resources: frugal.
2. Operating efficently.


Hehe, I am such a prick sometimes!


-- Adaam

(5 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

I haven't written like this in a while! [12 Sep 2004|02:36am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

So I got off the phone with Matty. And per usual, I have my fiew minutes of phone anticlymax. We had talked about some stuff, that wasn't exactly party convorsation, so it was just a little worse this time. So I wrote this song, just because. I love talking on the phone with him so much. I just love to hear his voice. But I always wish I were there with him. Well here, you guys read the song. It'll explain what I mean. Hope you all like!

~A song written for Matthew Bebbington~
~By Adaam King~

I talk on the phone with you 'til the rising of the sun
We engage in idol chat until our ears grow numb
We talk about our lives and things that we have done
and things we hide inside ourselves and things that make us one

But then there comes a time when we must say good bye
and that is when my heart comes falling from the sky


Cos theres a place inside my head
held by a bitter thread
I want to hear you speek to me forever
Your voice is vital oxygen
Your breath my melody
Why can't this telephone come with a warning?
"I'll break you like the day comes with the sun."

If only I were with you I'd tell you what I feel
and know you believed me, cos you'd know my lips were real
Why does this piece of plastic keep me from giving you
the breath of vital air that moves the earth beneath my shoes?

Cos then there comes a time when we must say good bye
and that is when my heart comes falling from the sky


You speek to me. I feel you breath me to life
To touch you would mean overcoming our distance
You spreads my wings and pull my hand from the knife
Cos I wanna carve your name in my heart

Please don't go
I love you
To touch you
I wanna be with you

*Chorus* x2

Yay song!

-- Adaam

(2 Lovers |Kiss Michelle!!)

Meet me in the morning when you wake up...*Keane* [11 Sep 2004|09:26pm]
[ mood | happy ]

You all should check out Keane! They play only with a key boardest, a drummer and a vocalist! It's pretty mellow, but I LOVE them!

So I didn't mean to make Matty sound like an addict. He's not. I know he's responsible. He just makes some decisions that I disagree with. And besides, it's not like he's going to do it ALL the time. I don't know where else he would get it, but Nate *his best friend, who broke his collar bone and NEEDS Vicodin...* is going back to Washington State soon. But I LOVE Nate to death. He is SO awsome, fun and really really cool about the whole gay thing. But he'll be taking his medication with him! Plus, I am really over it now. We had a text message convorsation of sorts that basically said that he was glad that I scolded him and was honest. It made me feel better about the whole thing. He has this uncanny control over me like that. Not control per say, but he can calm me down really easily. Not even my parents can do that. And he puts my mind at ease so much. It's wonderful.

Work was better than it has been in a while! I feel accomplished because I always come away from it feeling as if I had left something out. Like I didn't take the garbage out, or I didn't wash ALL the dishes. But I KNOW I did that this time because it was happening so often, that my boss put me on a checklist! Checklists are valuable tools for ADHD kids like me! OH! And I got payed! But alas, I won't see much of it, because I have to pay $60 in overage charges on my cell phone bill. And if you all know me, I HAVE to have my cell phone. I am naked and lost without it! And i am pobably going to have to pay a buttload of overage on text messageing as well. It's my guilty pleasure! I can't stop! I admit it, I'm addicted!! AH!

So I think I'm gonna go...and...do something...I don't know what, but when I do it, I'll know! That made sense...right? Ah well!

-- Adaam

Oh, and for your enjoyment, here are some Keane lyrics. This song is called Sunshine.
It reminds me of Matty, because he calls me Sunshine and its a really sweet song!


I hold you in my hands
A little animal
And only some dumb idiot
Would let you go
But if I'm one thing
Then that's the one thing
I should know
Can anybody find their home
Out of everyone
Can anybody find their home

I hold you in cupped hands
And shield you from a storm
Where only some dumb idiot
Would let you go

But if I'm one thing
Then that's the one thing
I should know
Can anybody find their home
Out of everyone
Can anybody find their home
Lost in the sun
Can anybody find their home
Come on, come on, come on
Can anybody find their home

Oh oh-oh-oh-oh
Can anybody find their home
Out of everyone
Can anybody find their home
Lost in the sun
Can anybody find their home
Come on, come on, come on
Can anybody find their home

Can anybody find their home

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